It’s been a strange end to 2021. Despite my best efforts, I got COVID. I guess that’s a first time experience, right? I had no symptoms. I was fully vaccinated and boosted, so I’m grateful for that. Truly.
Then suddenly our water heater broke in our house and the dishwasher too as if they were simpatico; connected in some way. Weird.
And I watched the news which is enough to tell you there’s plenty broken out there. Quarantining in the house while feeling completely healthy drove me nuts. Between getting a COVID-19 test, being isolated in my house and watching nothing but the news,-I had this queasy feeling like there was no safe place. The feeling like when you put your foot down and you aren’t sure it’s on solid ground.
Maybe you’ve felt this too. Before the pandemic, we walked around like we controlled everything. These days, we are reminded, in large and small ways, that we don’t.
But we still get to decide how to respond. We get to choose. More TV? More food? More of whatever stuff we do to drown out fear/anxiety?
When I was free of COVID, my daughter invited me to come into Philly. Walk around. Get some lunch outside, some air.
Sure. Why not? A change of scenery.
It had been a gray day, but the temperature was mid 50s. The sun was trying to peak out.
We walked past a park where children were laughing and playing on swing sets and seesaws.
We walked by Independence Hall, and on cobbled streets, and wondered out loud about the founders of our country walking the same paths and the dangers they faced.
We sat outside a little café watching tourists go by and locals with their dogs.
We walked through city gardens, watched robins in a tree feasting on red berries, and as we walked I realized, whatever felt a bit broken and sad within me, lifted. I felt a little lighter, a little more hopeful.
There was life all around me and my beautiful daughter was my guide, taking me to places I’d passed before but never walked, never really looked at fully.
We all, generally, walked into 2022 with a bit of “what’s next?” feeling. The fact is, we don’t know. All we know is if we wake up healthy, we get today and today we get to choose. We can get stuck; or we can keep moving, keep walking new paths, keep doing the new and above all, keep looking at something a new way.
Dare on my friends.